I've been having the hardest time expressing myself in my own private writing. Since starting my venture of writing a second book, its been very difficult. The words haven't come easy. I've walked away from the computer several times.

It seems easier to blog, because people tune in and they tell you what their thinking and feeling. I've never felt so tangled up spiritually, I'm praying more than I ever have and trying to get to know this God again.

I feel as though I'm being pressed on all sides, but sometimes when we're are put through the fire. We come out stronger, we shine brighter and we fly from the inside. I learned something about myself today. And the simple revelation was that, I care more about others than I do my own self.

I'd give up my own salvation if only one could share in it. I beg for grace and mercy daily, Lord only knows how broken I am. I need him so much, and when all this dust clears, I'm hoping to see a better image of him. I think what scares me the most about being honest, with others in my second book.

We be that I'm afraid of only confusing people more, that's the last thing I want to do. But my insides tell me that this is something that must be done. I pray that you all can bare with me through out all of this. I'm not your average Christian, I wear my heart on my sleeve, and I let my hurt bleed for the world to see.

I want to encourage you to keep going, I don't care how hard it is, or how hard it's going to be. Never stop moving forward, each day is a gift. We need grace and peace. Are bodies may be broken, and we may not want to fight any longer. But you must fight, I don't care what people say anymore. We can change this world, and it just starts with us believing that we were born with a light within us that we must use daily.

I don't want to sound new age-ish, be we all have an inner light. And if we reflect in the most broken places. The possabilites are endless. I believe that there is a greatness within us that pushes us to strive. Lets hold fast to hope, we feel an unseen love, and we are children of that love.

God's love for will never change. Pour your hearts out, our lives depend on it.