Hello friends,
I'm not sure that I have anything inspiring to say. I just wanted to give you all an update on my life. I'm writing again, (as of Thursday) it started with a memory from my childhood. So I did what any good writer does, write it down. But that's as far as it's gone so far.
It feels like there is so much tention inside right now, like a war taking place on the inside. My greatest battle right now is that, I'm insecure as a writer. There's so many voices in my head right (I'm not crazy) voices of friends and other authors.
I was so inspired by Donald Millers new book, that so much of it is what I want to say as well. But I don't want to be like him. Sure I'd love to hit the NY times Best Seller list, but in order to do that, a lot of effort has to come from me.
Which in all honesty I am afraid to be honest, I'm afraid of loosing peoples attention. I never want to write a book, and some one come away with it Un-inspired. God I'm so scared right now.
And I know.. As a Christian your not meant to be scared, but I think it means we will be. I just cannot describe what I'm feeling right now. But it just makes me want to scream and punch anything that won't break my hands
It just feels like something is growing and moving inside... But I'm scared to fail. I guess I'm also scared of people on Amazon saying that my writing is worthless and borning. And it just makes me want to rip my hair out!
I know I should probably take it easy on myself, but I don't know how.
Pray and fight by my side if you will.
-Brandon
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I really enjoyed Don Miller's new book. It inspired me to make some changes in my life, and a friend of mine proposed after reading the book...
I write songs, but I have never showed anyone any of the songs I've written because of that same fear. These songs are from my heart, and I don't want people to look at what has come from my heart and be uninspired. I guess I'm just afraid of people not liking them...
I am praying for you, and I identify with what you're saying.
Worthless and boring?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!
(that's all I have to say)
@ramblesofalison - what? :)
@Brandon_thewriter - lol, I meant - how could someone say that? I dont think I could read anything of yours and be bored.
@ramblesofalison - well you never know.. some people love certain things, and others don't like certain things. its just a fear i have.
@Brandon_thewriter - yeah I know what you mean.
haha yeah, i am trying to get my book re-published still. and just started writing my second book.